Big Mistake
Both hubby and I are not gifted in encouraging andedifyingg and instead of focusing on how wonderful my blog is and what a good writer I am ('cause I know he thinks that) he says, "Now I know where you've been spending all your time. "
That happened as I was heading out the door for my writing weekend. Talk about heaping a load of discouragement on me! I immediately went into deciphering the hidden message mode which said:
"Gee, honey, now I understand why the laundry is never done, and dinner isn't on time when I walk through the door. I've always wondered where you were when it's time to put the kids to bed, now I know. Uh, didn't you give up writing?"
Well, whether or not that's what he actually said, it's what I heard and it mixed with my own mama guilt for spending too much time on the computer. (Hey, at least I don't watch soaps while eating bon bons or talk on the phone. Don't I get some points for that?)
But still, I've slowly been feeling this new obsession growing out of control, but I also knew there'd be an end to the endless hours on the internet. We're still in summer mode, gearing up for homeschool. So while his words might have been right on, it's the lack of support and encouragement I often feel for my writing that got to me.
Don't get me wrong, he's a wonderful guy who lets me go off on SEVERAL in town weekends a year to write or scrapbook or whatever! And he has NO PROBLEM taking care of the four kids. It's just he doesn't get it that my writing isn't just a hobby. It's a career in the making which would carry more weight if I was actually making money at it. Though I do remind him that I've made $1200 writing in the last two years (though I turn around and spend it on writer's conferences.) Doesn't that count for it being a REAL career?
Anyway, enough gripping. I'm just so excited to be here in the hotel suite (that my hubby did a business trade for so I could get away.) I've got my coffee brewed. I'm set up on the bed, though there's a perfectly good desk. My meals are stashed away in the frig and the room came with microwave popcorn and two complementary beverages which I got at the little food pantry down stairs. So I'm all set. (If only this high speed internet hook up was a little faster.)
Next thing to do it is log off, pray and then write!
4 comments:
THAT sounds like a VERY cool weekend. I would totally love just holing up in a hotel all by myself with my laptop. Maybe go for a walk once in a while to stretch my legs and get inspired.
How cool!
Oooooooooo, do you know how blessed you are???? I think I'm morphing into the green-eyed monster as I type. Seriously, I hope your weekend is blessed beyond belief!
PS. My hubby does NOT read my blog!
As much as I love my family, I look forward to my layovers. It's nice to have time to yourself!
My prayers are with you. I know that I am blessed that the Lord gave me a clear calling to write and that my husband fully acknowledges and encourages my writing because he too believes it to be His will. If it is the Lord's will for you He will open your husband's eyes to it as well. He may also have a different plan for you. A friend of mine had the ure to write and even got two novels published before she realized that this was not His plan for her. Now He has given her a blossoming photography business, something she now loves but which she never imagined doing. His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts.
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