Often Go Awry.
"Has someone seen the life I planned?
It seems it's been misplaced
I've looked in every corner
It's lost without a trace..."
~ Beth Moore~
From the poem: "The Life I Planned "
Do things always turn out the way we plan? I don't think so.
I dreamed a lot when I was younger of finding love and having the perfect kids. Is it anything like I thought? Yes and no.
It's tons of more work than I ever dreamed, and extremely challenging most days. Many times those I love bring out the worst in me. Why? I haven't totally figured that out yet.
Maybe it has something to do with this quote. Maybe growing up in dysfunction made me have unrealistically high expectations about motherhood and marriage. I didn't really have great examples of either to follow in my life, so I made up my own idealistic view of what each should look like. The reality is, it looks nothing like what I had planned it would be.
But the good news is God can make it even better than I imagined! So as I plug along doing the best I can at this season in my life, I'm trying hard not to plan my future. Because in the end, God is the one who orders my steps. All I have to do is follow where He leads.
6 comments:
yes, it's God that orders ALL our steps Gina. Even the "interruptions" are all a part of His plan. Welcome them when they come :)
That was true for me too--I had unrealisticly high expectations about how things should be. Good thing God is gracious or I'd be bitter and alone.
Camy
Gina -
Prov. 16:9 is one of my fav. scripture verses - In his heart a man plans his course, but God determines His steps."
God's plans are always far better than my own anyway! :)
I like the saying I don't know what's in the future, but I know WHO holds the future!
I like the "yes and no"--how true. My family is far from perfect, and yet it's perfect for me. That God's divine intervention for you. :)
Those expectations are unrealistic even if you don't come from dysfunction, because we've never been in the role before. I'm constantly reevaluating my expectations of my kids and of myself. The "shoulds" are such impossible taskmasters.
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