My mind is still reeling from the last five hours I spent at the library...writing. Earlier in the week I sent out my synopsis to be critiqued by Story Sensei and it came back on Thursday. Camy's suggestions were great! It was just what I needed to get this story back on track.

Okay, I know what you're thinking because I'm thinking the same thing. Didn't I give up writing? Well, yes. That's why this weekend was a little scary for me. For a while I've been thinking about writing again, despite my latest rejection, but I didn't hear one way or another from God.

During this time I've been drawing closer to God and re-connecting with the reason God has given me this gift-to glorify Him. It's not about me. It's not about being published. It's about using the gift God has given me and letting Him do the rest. All this time while I was NOT writing, I was actually working on my blog...writing. And I've come to realize I cannot NOT write. Just like a fish has to swim and a bird has to fly. I have to write.

So why did God tell me to stop in such a dramatic way. Well, I was in sin and He had to get my attention and turn my focus back on Him and away from my idol-writing. At least that's what I believe.

Am I afraid I might turn back to my idols like the Israelites? Sure. But all I can do is proceed with caution and look for the flashing red light if things get out of balance. I guess only time with tell what God really wants and if I've made the right decision.

I'm learning that I don't have to juggle my many hats. But I do have to take them on and off. Today I wore the writer hat. Now it's time to wear the mommy hat and play Polly Pockets with my four year old.